Over the past couple of weeks, my weekends have been busy with events; jam-packed days catching up with old friends. It’s been wonderful but the moment the last event ended, my body seems to have gone downhill. I’ve developed a bit of a death cough (apologies to Laura and Stevie who recently shared hotel rooms with me!) and slowly my energy is being zapped. I know there’s only so much I can do – I should be listening to my body and slowing down.
When this happens, I feel like a teenager being told I can’t go out. I have to stay in, we can’t go there because I’m a little poorly. I want to do it all – blog as much as I possibly can as well as do lots of exciting things with Emma too. But this week, I’ve seen that it’s not on the cards for us. Not this week. We need to rest and watch Minions for the 1,000th time and just take it a little easier.
It’s made me realise that perhaps lately, I’ve been doing too much. I never take the time to do something for myself – even down to booking a doctor’s appointment for my cough that lingers. I’m not sure how or why this revelation appeared but it’s been like a slap in the face to put things back in perspective. The most important thing is family and that has always got to come first. I’ve always been able to get myself completely sucked into work and the balance so often gets knocked the other way. It’s now time to tip it back in the opposite direction!
So this weekend, I’m shutting my laptop and not feeling bad about it. No guilt at all. I always try to write about own experiences and what’s happening in my world but at the moment all I can think of is to get better soon. I’m going to go on seaside drives, play in the park with Emma and watch lots of TV until things are a little sunnier again. I need to start to accept that it’s okay to not be able to do everything and that the priority for the moment is to focus on feeling better.