Dear my darling Emma,
I can’t believe it’s been a year since you were passed to me on 22nd April. It was 10:50am and I will never forget it. You looked up at me and never knew that inside I was scared, as I had no idea what I was doing or how to be everything to you. Ever since that moment, I have watched you grow and develop, becoming more fascinated and curious each day. In those early weeks, you kept your eyes shut to keep the sunlight out. Who would have known that a year on, you would have such wide eyes, soaking up everything around you.
You spend your days crawling around and standing up on our sofa. It’s been such a long time since you have fallen, after weeks of losing your footing and bumping your head. Every time, I could see the tears were not just from pain but from the frustration of not being able to do what you had intended. I love your determination, and I never want you to lose that.
Your laugh is the best sound in the world, but it takes a bit of work to find those little things that tickle you. Your favourites to date include your brother yodelling (it doesn’t have quite the same effect when mummy or daddy do it!), the song Aga Do and being spun around when you least expect it. Every time you giggle, I see that flash of your beautiful front teeth and it melts my heart.
Your favourite foods are risotto, pasta with tomato, carrot and cheese sauce and chicken, sweet potato and apple. As well as cream cheese with crackers, rice cakes and raspberries. I love watching you eat and pick what you want to eat next and am so proud of how quickly you’ve taken to eat so many different foods. I’m sorry if I’m sometimes impatient when we’re eating – for months I worried about your weight, but I know now how healthy you are and sometimes your appetite fluctuates.
It seems to me that you are growing faster every day and I can see you working everything out bit by bit. I love that you now see the fun in going to the playground and playing on the swings, especially when I catch your legs unexpectedly and say “gotcha!”. We’ve just begun taking more day trips out of Brighton, travelling more on the trains and buses – I can’t wait to have more adventures with you this coming year.
I’m so proud of you and love you so much.