My Dear Emma,
Another three months have passed and this time the change has been huge. You are exploring the world every minute of the day and suddenly your world has become bigger. It’s no longer just me, you and the boys. Now you spend 2 days with your Nanny, 2 days with nursery and have adapted so well. I couldn’t have imagined a little girl adapting better to different surroundings but you take it all in your stride. To you, it’s exciting and I love how you seem to take the best of every place you go.
Mummy returning to work has been tough in some ways, but in other ways I’ve seen the bond with your Nanny grow each week. Every time I return from work, I peek through the window and see you sitting on Nanny’s knee, reading your favourite book about a Little Monster who loves to gather up fruit and veg. This moment will always melt my heart very slightly; you don’t know it yet but these bonds with family will last a lifetime and it means so much to me that we’ve had the chance to make these moments part of our every day lives.
You’re such a chatterbox and although you only say a few words, it doesn’t deter you from expressing yourself. You’re still our alarm clock and we wake each morning to you chatting to Nelly, Babs and Bing (your cuddlies). Then when you’ve had enough chatting, you call our for Bridie and Daddy to come and get you. It’s still such a novelty hearing you talk and trying to guess the word you are trying to describe. You can say Mummy, Bridie, Daddy, James, pop (for toast), door, bubble, duck, bird, cat, doggie as well as all the animal sounds. I know it’s just the beginning and there’ll be more and more words to come!
Starting nursery has seen you go from strength to strength; we’ve discovered you love painting and colouring in so we do more of that at home when we can. I’ve seen your confidence grow too, from a shy girl who was always so cautious around other kids to being quite outgoing and exploring new things without hesitation now. You seem to be changing non-stop, like life is on fast forward and I can’t press pause. It feels like yesterday you were a 6 lb baby in my arms and I was worrying about every little thing in your life.
But it’s not all sweetness and light, as we’ve just entered a new phase of tantrums and real melodrama. It’s a testing time for Mummy and Daddy, as we try to teach you about the world while letting you grow at the same times. Sometimes it has to be ‘no’ and even though you don’t like it, that’s the way it is. I hate seeing you scream in protest every time we have to change your nappy or get dressed in the morning, but I also know this is part of you growing up. You’re testing those boundaries and exploring how everything around you works…I know this is what you need to do, so I’ll try and remember in those moments to be patient too.
I’ve been writing to you ever since you were 9 months old now, in the hope that one day I will show you these letters. I hope it will make you see how much we love and adore you. I hope you’ll see that we are so utterly proud of the little girl you are becoming. Recently I’ve really got a sense of how you will be as a girl: funny, curious, determined, stubborn, ragey and the brightest star in the room. I’m proud to be your Mum and can’t quite believe the next time I write this, you will be turning two years old. Just amazing how time can whizz by in a flash, so let’s enjoy every second.
Love you always,