Thank You: A Letter to Emma’s Nursery

I was lucky to be offered a job without having to scour job advertisements and revamp my CV beforehand. It was handed to me, and all I needed to do was decide if I wanted to say yes.


Negotiating a part time role and being really clear about what I can do now that I am a mum. Having to be prescriptive about hours, is something that is totally alien to me. This was different.


Talking to my parents about my dilemma and not being able to take Emma to nursery for 2 of the 3 working days, and them jumping to my aid with absolutely no questions.


Actually putting our master plan into action, going to work and being a professional again – having to buy a handbag and cardigan en route as I had no need for them before.


Being thrown in the deep end, to a day jam-packed with meetings; quickly learning about the politics of the team and making decisions as I see them.

Easy (to my surprise)

Running home to see Emma as soon as the clock says 18:00 – racing up escalators and weaving in and out of crowds of commuters, to catch that train. Hearing my heart beat faster than ever as I hope and pray the train leaves the station on time.

Excruciatingly hard


In the past few weeks, my emotions have be stretched to the max as I claw back that little part of me that I’ve been missing over the past year and a half. Sometimes it felt second nature to me, and a relief to be back doing the job I love. But then those feelings of guilt creep in. In those moments, I feel selfish for wanting this all of a sudden. It’s a constant see-saw of it being easy, then so hard…

But you put my mind at rest that Emma is okay and she will be okay. You take care of her when I am not there and reassure me that it is normal for her to scream when I leave her. You tell me that in 10 minutes, she is fine again and runs off playing with the other children. You remind me that she’s doing great, and our fussy eater is now starting to enjoy eating.

So, to the team at my daughter’s nursery: thank you for being there for her, for looking after her like she is your own. Thank you for caring how she is doing when I drop her off, and taking the time to let me know how she has been when I pick her up. I know you have other toddlers to care for and it’s constantly busy, but this means the world to me. It makes me feel like I was there.

Thank you for taking pictures of her for me to see and teaching her a whole world of new things. I see her painting and getting stuck in with messy play, with a proud smile on her face that she’s cracking something brand new. I know she has been taking it all in as she is now gabbling away and it feels like those first few words are right round the corner. I can see her growing up and becoming a little girl before my very eyes and she’s in the best possible hands.

This new change feels totally new to me, it makes me doubt whether I am doing enough as her mum. It makes me feel selfish and guilty at times, that I’m not there. After months of watching Emma’s every move, it feels like I should be there. But you made it so easy, so straightforward. I can do my job because you are doing your job so well. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for making it all possible.

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  1. October 18, 2016 / 6:49 am

    Aaaw it sounds like Emma (and you) are settling in well. I’m glad it’s working out. It’s the funny thing I’m learning about blogging – you go on other people’s journeys with them through their posts. I remember when you announced that you’d been offered the job and you weren’t sure whether to take it or not. Now your plan is in action and you’re enjoying your new step. I’m glad you feel so happy with Emma’s nursery – it makes a world of difference #DreamTeam
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  2. October 18, 2016 / 7:10 am

    Aww…I know exactly how you feel! I’m so grateful to the Popple’s nursery for doing my job when I’m not around to do it. I still feel guilty sometimes, but I know she’s doing well there. Plus she eats better at nursery than she does at home – I’m always amazed when I pick her up and they say things like, “She ate a chicken stir-fry for lunch.” Wait…she did WHAT? I don’t know how they do it. #DreamTeam
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  3. October 18, 2016 / 7:45 am

    What a lovely post. It’s so nice to say thank you. I know it must be hard to leave he each day, but you are giving her new people to play with, new skills to develop and also some me-time for you. Even if it is working, I bet you feel great for doing something for you.

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  4. October 18, 2016 / 8:24 am

    This is lovely. It must be so incredibly difficult to leave your little girl with other people, but your confidence in them is touching. Alison x #DreamTeam
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  5. October 18, 2016 / 8:46 am

    Oh how lovely? Sounds like you found the perfect nursery. So pleased you are feeling so positive – most of the time – and a huge well done to you for finding a balance that works for you – sounds like you have a great team of people around you! #DreamTeam

  6. October 18, 2016 / 9:20 am

    This is so lovely Bridie and I’m so glad that Emma has settled so well at nursery. It’s so important to feel comfortable when we leave our children with anyone, and it means we can worry a little less when we aren’t with them. I’m so happy this is all working out for you. #dreamteam
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  7. October 18, 2016 / 9:56 am

    It can be so difficult trying to get in a new routine when starting work. But it makes life slot easier when the little ones settle nicely and gives you peace of mind #dreamteam

  8. October 18, 2016 / 10:06 am

    It must be so tough sometimes, but it sounds like you are nailing it! Nurseries are really great places, our little ones learn so much there.

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  9. October 18, 2016 / 11:21 am

    It sounds like she’s in a lovely nursery. I always think that a happy mum equals a happy child, and if that means going out to work then that’s fine! Your daughter will have a great role model of a loving mother, who’s also fulfilled in her work life, what could be better?! #dreamteam
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  10. October 18, 2016 / 12:34 pm

    Aww it seems like you found an amazing nursery for Emma, I am so glad that you can go to work with a piece of mind that she is in good hands!

  11. October 18, 2016 / 12:48 pm

    Awww. This is so lovely. Going back to work is hard, so many mixed emotions. But knowing your child is safe, happy and in good hands makes all the difference. #dreamteam

  12. October 18, 2016 / 3:17 pm

    This is so lovely, I remember the nursery days like they were yesterday & I remember the screaming child, thankfully when I called 10 minutes later my boys were absolutely fine too. Its hard being a working mum when your children are so little. #dreamteam

  13. October 18, 2016 / 3:20 pm

    This is such a lovely post. It’s so so tough those first few weeks of returning to work after mat leave but it does get better. #dreamteam
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  14. October 18, 2016 / 8:22 pm

    Know this feeling so well. #DreamTeam

  15. October 18, 2016 / 8:37 pm

    Oh Bridget, I’m really starting to love your posts. I commented on another one telling you how just because you’re back at work doesn’t make you less of a mother. You are a wonderful mother. Your love for Emma shines through massively with every single word. You don’t have to be there 24/7, you are doing so incredible. It will 100% feel harder on you than Emma. It sounds as if you picked a wonderful childcare provider. Now watch her blossom, and you blossom also. Brilliant lady #dreamteam
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  16. October 18, 2016 / 8:42 pm

    Ah, it’s such a relief when you find a nursery that treat your child like their own. When the Child first went to nursery there were times when she just wanted to be hugged and carried all day, so they did. It was so nice to know she was getting the attention and comfort she wanted. #dreamteam
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  17. October 18, 2016 / 8:58 pm

    What a great post. Im a childminder and I think it’s so important to make time first each set of parents at pick up time, tell let you know that they have been ok. I too send pictures to the parents phones so they can see for themselves that their little one is happy. Emma’s nursery sounds like a good one 🙂

  18. October 18, 2016 / 9:06 pm

    Awww. That’s a lovely post – you have nothing to feel guilty for, it’s all part of being a mum and looking after yourself and refocusing. I went into nursery when I was 6 months and my mummy had a little guilt but it’s been such a positive experience for both of us xx #DreamTeam
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  19. October 18, 2016 / 9:06 pm

    Ahhh how lovely <3 It sounds like you've found a fantastic nursery for her, which must be a huge relief for you. I hope the new job is going well #dreamteam
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  20. October 18, 2016 / 11:32 pm

    This is such a lovely read. We had our first nursery settling in session today and thankfully it went well, but it’s lovely to read about your experiences and about how you feel about the nursery that Emma goes to. It’s such a massive thing, but knowing they’re being cared for by trusted professionals is a huge weight off. Congratulations on your new job, too.
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  21. October 19, 2016 / 10:49 am

    This is great 🙂 It means so much to find a nursery where you know your child is happy and safe. The staff at ours are just wonderful and it makes it easier knowing that I can trust them whilst I go to work. #DreamTeam
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  22. October 19, 2016 / 10:55 am

    Lovely post, so true of those emotions we all go through when we make this dramatic change to our lives. #Dreamteam

  23. October 19, 2016 / 11:25 am

    Every working Mum has these guilty feelings but I believe attending nursery at a young age did my children the world of good. It help make them the independent girls they are today. It sounds like your little girl is settling in and finding her feet as you are in your new job. Xx #DreamTeam

  24. October 19, 2016 / 11:45 am

    What a beautiful post. It makes such a difference when the nursery really involve you and take pictures and it sounds like she’s settling in really well. Mummy guilt can be hard to deal with and hits us all at some point over a range of different things but it’s important to take care of our needs too, happy fulfilled mummy is much better than unfulfilled mummy always wondering what could have been x
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  25. October 19, 2016 / 11:48 am

    Nearly all my kids have had some sort of part time nursery. Its tough. And it was only possible because I had complete faith in the setting. Well done to all I say! #dreamteam

  26. October 19, 2016 / 5:29 pm

    It’s such a relief when you find a nursery that is kind and understanding. It’s so hard leaving them those first few times. But it does get easier I promise. I can’t speak as someone who has had a child in nursery all day but I can speak as someone who has had to leave my little boy every day. Not always at nursery but I have had to leave him since I went back to work part time when he was 9 months old. It’s horrible but it does get easier. Lovely post. #dreamteam
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  27. October 19, 2016 / 7:16 pm

    My little one is going to start nursery in the new year when she is 2 so a lot of what you are feeling is looming on the horizon for me. I totally felt you when you said thanks for taking care of her like she’s your own. Your so lucky you’ve found an amazing nursery that allows you to say that 🙂 Hope my little one is as lucky as Emma xx #DreamTeam

  28. October 20, 2016 / 6:41 pm

    Congratulations, how wonderful (: Things will get easier, the important thing is you’re happy and your daughter is surrounded by love (:

  29. October 21, 2016 / 3:26 pm

    What a lovely letter to Emma’s nursery. It all looks like it’s working out well. I think some of the little things never leave you though. Like… the frantic heart pounding running across platforms and walk ways to get to the train on time. I do this! In fact, I do this across Kings Cross station every day. I will be the one red faced, darting in and out of the crowd shouting sorry to everyone (as they run into me?!). Thanks for co-hosting with me lovely. #DreamTeam xxx
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  30. October 23, 2016 / 1:01 am

    Aww this is really so lovely. Finding a great nursery is absolutely priceless. They just make it possible for you to relax that your little ones are in safe, capable hands and are having fun and learning. It makes a world of difference. As hard as it is, they are absolutely fine and even enjoy their days at nursery. I dont think there is anything wrong as a mum to want to have your career too. Dads do without any question (on the most part) so we really shouldnt question ourselves either, we deserve to have our careers as much as they do 🙂 Emily #DreamTeam
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  31. October 24, 2016 / 11:23 pm

    What a sweet message. Your feelings for going back to work are only natural but you have peace of mind, which sounds like it has made a world of difference.

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