Nursery: The First Hurdle

One week ago Emma started nursery…just two mornings a week to start with. When she was born, I plucked an age in my mind (18 months) of when I thought she should start but as it turns out, she needed it earlier. As she approached 15 months old, I could see that she thrives on being around other kids, soaking up everything around her. We’d go to the park and she’d stop dead in her tracks when she saw a 3 year old girl, watching their every move. I knew we’d have to alter our plan.

I found the decision hard. In my eyes she is still a baby, so how can I sent her to nursery when she could be at home with me? It was mostly for selfish reasons: I didn’t want to miss a thing. I’ve already banked the first step, to the first time she said “baaa” when I do the sheep sign, to the first time it looked like she kicked a football; and my phone is over-loaded with videos remembering every little detail. Even though it’s not really my thing, we’d go to baby groups in an attempt to keep her stimulation appropriate to what she needs. But somehow I know that’s not quite enough.


The decision was in fact obvious, a no brainer. One settling in session confirmed that she needs nursery. We arrived and were greeted by a smiley, warm and friendly girl…they call all the staff Aunties and Uncles to give it a family feel, which I thought was really sweet. I was surprised that Emma, who doesn’t take to everyone straight away, wanted to play with her immediately and started organising the sippy cups (she’s ALL about the organisation at the moment). Then we went to play in the garden and she laughed hysterically to herself playing with the hula hoop and kitchen set. Afterwards was messy play, something I’ve never been able to do with Emma and she sat there engaged and excited. Two hours passed and I knew that this will be good for her.

Three morning sessions on and although no tears emerged to begin with, they are flowing angrily now when I drop her off. I hand her over to one of the Auntie’s and Emma looks back at me with wounded betrayal that I am leaving her. I force a smile and tell her I’ll be back at 1pm. Deep down though, I wonder how on earth I will do this for 3 full days a week, 24 hours a week of wondering if she’s okay, hoping she’s happy there, hoping she’ll eat her lunch, hoping she’ll sleep if she needs to.

We’re only at the beginning of our nursery journey, but there’s one over-riding feeling about it all. I have to learn to let go a little. There are certain things that are out of my control now – she’s a toddler and having the opportunity to learn more and make friends is brilliant. Since her start to nursery, Emma is learning fast. She keeps showing us her nose after singing heads, shoulders, knees and toes and is chatting so much more.

It feels odd not to have her by my side every moment of her day, but I’m so proud of my little rock star.

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  1. September 14, 2016 / 10:20 am

    I’m so pleased for you that she has settled in well. I’m sure she will get on brilliantly and her development will sky rocket! xx

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  2. September 14, 2016 / 2:20 pm

    I am so happy for you both. Ideally, we would have started Youngest earlier but over here the nursery fees are CRAZY so we had to wait for her free space. I think attending nursery and pre-school is so important for their development 🙂
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  3. September 15, 2016 / 8:52 pm

    I am not surprised you are proud of your little rock star… she is clearly a wonderful blend of both beauty and brains! A big step for both of you but an exciting one. 🙂 xx

  4. September 16, 2016 / 12:41 pm

    Ah that’s lovely. Nursery can be tricky and depends on the child. My little girl loves it and it dies her the world of good but I know it’s not for everyone. The hardest part I find is letting go and accepting that you won’t be there all the time for everything. Argh! Hope she continues to settle well and thrive xx #ablogginggoodtime

  5. September 17, 2016 / 12:30 pm

    Ah this is lovely. I think all kids are different and some completely thrive in a nursery environment – sounds like Emma will! She is just gorgeous and you should definitely be so proud. Hope she continues to settle in well
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  6. September 17, 2016 / 1:42 pm

    Oh is she a beauty! So glad for you both that it works. It’s a gift you gave her! Remember that! #ablogginggoodtime xoxo
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  7. September 21, 2016 / 3:23 pm

    Oh well done Emma and well done Mummy!! You’ll just watch her bloom even more now! Well done sweetheart… proud tribal mamma here!
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